Not caring and being "numb" in an apathy kind of way can feel relaxing and comforting sometimes until we get our mojo back :-) My therapist taught me that moods and emotions are like the weather, coming and going and changing and I used that to help me wait out situations and feelings I didn't like but didn't want to or know how to work on.

I'm glad you posted and are venting at least. Hope you get a little spark of interest in something that you can blow on and get a fire going for yourself soon!