Suratji, when I was at the same stage in my therapy as you, I think I may have felt similar in some ways to what you describe. The feeling was very unsettling, and I found it unnatural (I don't usually get close to someone so fast or look to them to meet needs, help me, etc.), but still I kind of ate it up.

I thought about my T a lot. But the relationship did settle down after a while. It became more "secure." It was like passing through the crush phase in a romantic relationship. The other side was safe, comfortable, caring and just very secure. I didn't think about him so much, I was just confident in how he felt and thought about me. I didn't feel needy when he was out of town for a week because I knew he would be back soon and we would continue our sessions, right where we left off. I call this secure attachment, rather than dependency. Before the relationship settled down, I think I was attaching, but it wasn't secure yet. Our strong relationship allows me to go places in therapy with my T that I couldn't if we didn't have this strong bond. So I see it as very essential to successful therapy for me.
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Originally Posted by Surataji
I will talk to T next session to ask her to explain it to me and ask her if it will end eventually.
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For me, it didn't really end, but it morphed into something better and more secure. Our close relationship is a positive thing for me. Even when I am done with therapy, I don't think it will end. I will always feel very close to him, even if I don't see him again. His place in my heart is secure. It doesn't make me feel needy to have given him this space. It makes me feel healthy.