Do you ever wonder if you are making stuff up in therapy? Sometimes I don't even recognize myself! I don't know who that person is that keeps talking about things with her therapist.

Could it be that I have pushed things so far down that I can't tell what is real and what isn't? When this stuff comes up, it flows freely. But when I step back and think about what I said, I don't even know that story. It seems surreal to me.

In my rational mind, I know that I am not making stuff up! I am so blasted confused right now. Am I living in the past or the present? I feel like I am in one of those time machines that visits the past. Squiggle is getting stuck back there and she doesn't know how to come back to reality!

It is almost like two completely different people. I am very confused and just about to lose my mind over this! Is it worth it to go back and dig up the past? Sometimes its as if we are going into areas of the mind that can play games with you. Is if real or fake? True or false? Did it happen or not? Are my details right? Are my emotions taking over and causing me to exaggerate things? Am I hallucinating?

I don't know that person who is talking to my therapist. Who is she?