Im in therapy...just weekly sessions tho...i struggle 24/7 w myself...ddnt realize how serious my situation had become until I admitted what was happening or recognized on paper my down hill spiral...i know body is in a vicarious state & I know what I have to do to stay "out"...but really I just want to go away...far away...im exhausted, tired of thinking...tired of looking at myself knowing how ridiculous it is...some of the thoughts I have...some ive had for years...y is it now that it all boils down and my life hinges on this issue alone. Has it been this all along that ive been battleling that has become my demise?