(((((Squiggles)))))

I feel this way in waves and I think this is one of the reasons why I avoid talking about deep things in T. Sometimes I feel like my normal old self- and other times (like this week) I get that feeling of not being sure any of this is real. I hate it. It's like a blanket is lifted ever so slightly from over my eyes and I see something and then, BANG- that blanket is dropped and I'm not sure if what I thought I saw is what I really saw. It confuses me too- and makes me want to do stupid things. I guess it could be dissociation of some sort, but who knows. All I know is it is a terrible feeling and honestly makes me feel like I really am crazy. So Squiggles, if you and I do feel the same thing- maybe it is real and we're not really crazy after all. But- who knows?

I think this topic is a really triggering me right now.

At least I know I'm not alone with this feeling anymore- thanks Squiggles.