Thanks everyone for your responses. I do have physical problems that do contribute to my depression. I have been tested for lupus and arthritis because of my pain and fatigue and that was several years ago and the tests were negative so they told me they think its fibromyalgia. I take tramadol for pain but that is it. There is nothing to help my fatigue. I look online for alternative help and i am trying different things. But my outlook on my life and negative thinking and just my feeling that there is no hope for me is really bringing me down. I am trying to push myself to go to a depression group i found. I went yesterday and found people feeling somewhat the same way and people on disability like me and having the same shame of not being able to work and wanting to hide from people because of the shame. It would help me to have some energy because that keeps me from doing things i need to do or want to do. Also the pain sometimes keeps me in also. Anyway thanks for listening and responding.

Anjel