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attekus said:
I don't know why this happens but I just wanted to let you know that I do this to myself, no one else is doing anything to me.

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Dear attekus,

YES, believe ME I do understand that no one is doing this to you or to me, that it is all held with in the MIND, our personal inner belief system, but I do know that these feelings did not get there on their own... some one (or many others) helped to create such FEAR in us both.
While another person might have wounded our soul (our heart), hence helped to create this monster in our mind - it is our fight and only we can change it.

I just needed someone to talk to about it all, some one that truly understands me and will not judge me - no matter what.

I ordered the book "The Broken Mirror" yesterday - it is suppose to explain and help with this disorder of BDD. I will let you know how it goes...

If I may ask? - when did you first start to feel as though your looks, or the lack of them, controlled you (or that of the looks of another)? What or who first made you feel UGLY, less than perfect in their eyes, per their opinion?

LoVe,
Rhapsody -