After a 9 hour day at work plus 5 hours of traveling.... all I want to do is sleep... or at least that's what I had thought. now, it's changing to just a little of si and then sleep. Which isn't the best thing to do, but..... I don't know I'm just really tired... and waiting for my laundry to be done. in the past 4 days, I just don't think that I have ocomplished much... and maybe this could hlep... somehow... or maybe doing a bit of exercise will help instead... but I've just done so much work today. that doing something relaxing sounds good, but at the same time it doesn't.... what do I want really... without talking myself out of it. I change my mind soo much and it's not getting me very far... listening to the little consisous just well, is hard. I just don't hear it over all of the other things that are on my mind... I just don't know how to listen... and I'm fustrated so I'm turning to something that I can control...

What is this really??