My first thoughts were of people who have "wronged" me (mostly in my head), how I have screwed up my life, how I am a loser who should have achieved much more, and just general anger about everything. Ugh. I hate it when I get like this. I am turning 40 next week and I think this has something to do with it. I have no children (want (ed) them), I'm divorced and horrible at relationships, addiction issues, bipolar, etc......but in reality my life isn't so bad. I have wonderful friends and family who love me, a job, a home, a car, etc.......this is purely irrational self-hating stuff in my head this morning.

I needed to vent, so if this post is too negative, I'm sorry. I'm gonna go clean for a while and see if that helps me get some of this crappy energy out.

Thanks for listening!

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