rose, i'm glad you shared what's going on with your depression. sometimes i just have to tell myself it will eventually run it's course tho it's very hard during the episode. my last episode lasted 4 long months. i just hung in there cause i knew it wasn't forever.
as for helping ppl and not getting support back. my first thought is to learn how to treat yourself as you do others. you are doing a lot of positive things to get better. good for you for not giving up.
another thought try to restrain yourself to save some caring for you. sometimes, too, we pick the wrong ppl we help. in life there are givers and takers. seems like you have helped many takers. they don't give back unfortunately.
i'd discuss this in outpatient. i'm sure you can learn skills to avoid giving too much of yourself to others. it's kind of you but you deserve better friends who will reciporate your kindness.