Especially when I'm having trouble in other areas ie depression, I have trouble setting limits I need to be ok. When I'm not doing 100% one of the first things to go is the ability to make quick decisions. My reasoning abilities are reduced. And when this happens I make more appointments with T and I have to be EXTREMELY careful setting up gym time (gym is my medication right now).

Current situation: group I'm in scheduled meeting. Took me HUGE effort to get this done, finished that yesterday. Now they are wanting to move the meeting to the time I have to go to the gym!! And since it's tomorrow the rest of my day is already filled with other commitments to the point that there is no other time to go. I HAVE TO get there, I didn't make it enough last week (T says minimum 3x week is a good idea) and I'm tanking.

This person keeps asking details. I don't WANT THEM TO KNOW I'm going to therapy, that I am desperate to get to the gym because it's my medication. I'm terrified of the reaction and I just don't think it's necessary. I want to keep this professional and like a normal person. But she keeps asking "oh well, what's that commitment you were talking about, why can't you do that then?" She was asking about a THERAPY appointment. I mumbled "an appointment", but it was late at night so I'm afraid she might guess. *sigh*

I don't know how to deal with this really
And I keep feeling "wrong" for saying no when I'm 'just going to the gym', or 'need to eat lunch' or whatever (vital parts of my recovery).