hmmm, my only suggestion is that you get out and do something that takes your mind off of things. have you considered getting a part-time job? it's more than about the money, it's also about the people you will meet. when i was in college, i took a part-time job at a dept store as a cashier on the evening shift (6 PM - 10 PM). most of the others were also college students. we would go out after work and have a nice time. i got invited to parties. i met a lot of people, some nicer than others, and made a group of friends. it was totally unexpected; i was there for the spending money but i learned a lot about life. it gave my life some purpose - i had a place to go at 6 PM 5 days a week. and, i left behind all my old friends who were more interested experimenting with drugs. they went nowhere; i lived.
volunteer work is another option. to this day, i still do it. it's rewarding and i meet a lot of nice people who value friendship and art more than they do money. i love dance but could find no one else who shared my love of it. it got depressing going by myself. now, i volunteer as an usher.
yeah, i have to admit that both working and volunteering forced me to learn how to be social. (i was raised by anti-social people.) it sounds like you need to try something new to help yourself. it's time to get out there and start learning by exposing yourself to new experiences.
sometimes, living mainly in your head is not a good place to be. apply for jobs in places that have a lot of employees your age and that have some interest to you, e.g., helping others, fashion, whatever. (avoid places where you would be lonely, e.g. a small convenience store.) rise to the social challenges that are posed rather than shying away from them, e.g., do people favors, chat about small upbeat things, always say hello and smile, joke around, say compassionate things about others; try to avoid saying/doing negative things. for sure, there will be ups and downs. continue to be resilient. you can do it!
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