Thank you Lexicon,
I think that going through watching someone (especially a parent) dying of cancer is the worst think I have ever experienced. It was so hard because no one (not even the Dr's) would admit that she was dying.....it was only something that I knew in my own mind as I watched her go downhill so quickly. I am sure that your being there 24/7 had to be as hard on you as it was on me. I just can't get those sights out of my mind or the cries of pain that no meds could even handls. Then there was my Mother who couldn't even sit up in her hospital bed but was telling the nurses how well she could get around with her walker. She had no idea of what reality was at the end & non of the Dr were honest with her about what was going on with her. She constantly told me that the Dr's would tell her what she needed to know......guess for some reason, they didn't think she needed to know she was dying. I was in the worst position since I knew what was happening by ovservation because on one was honest with me either.

I just can't get these visions out of my mind there isn't any meds that can help me take away the hurt away. I thought I could be strong enough to handle this......but that was wishfull thinking & even my horses & dogs who always try to help me aren't able to help this time.

The tears just keep flowing,
Debbie