(((((((((Improving)))))))))) Thank you very much.

This weekend was so strange for me. I didn't cry at all. I just was existing. It was a beautiful weekend, but I didn't enjoy it. I can't explain it. I saw my best friend but didn't care. She told me I really looked exhausted - which was strange for her to say since she didn't even tell me that when I was in my burnout last year.

I see T Monday, but I am not excited about seeing him at all. In fact, this is the first time since seeing him that I don't care if I go or not. No idea what we are going to talk about - since he always asks me. I'm not mad at him... I just no longer care if he cares about me I think. ?? not sure.

Whatever this is, it may be interesting to see what he says. Again, not that I actually care any more though. This is such a strange emotion or lack of emotion.

Thanks for listening to me.