poetgirl, do not worry about supporting anyone right now. What you post is helpful to a lot of us anyway, though for your sake I wish you weren't going through it at all! It makes me wonder about my therapy and the touching. My former T obviously thought "borderlines" couldn't be touched; my new T obviously doesn't "do" diagnoses and thinks touch is healing. Even with my sexual feelings, she hugs me. Every T is different. I wouldn't like it if my T would stop letting me touch her. It's helpful to me to see that touch does not have to be sexual.

I hope that you have a productive session and that your T addresses all of your feelings about what she's done. You have a right to tell her and to feel cheated about her taking away the hugs "forever."