it's true, I'm exactly the same as you Elana. A bad job just wrecks my life and sends me into a huge depression. The question is, what should I do about it.

I don't really like the job as it stands, though I haven't been there long. If i had a more positive view of the job, I wouldn't care about the cube aspect.. It's very isolating, and the people in charge don't seem to have a clue.

I could probably do well there if I could tolerate the kind of nonsense that the higher-ups talk -- other people tell me just to ignore it -- but I just don't believe in it. I have to have the kind of job that I believe in.

I've started looking for other jobs. The smart thing to do would be to keep this one for a while, save money (it pays a lot), and then quit and do whatever I wanted. But I guess as usual I'm not going to do the smart thing.

Don't get me wrong, I know a lot of people would be glad to be where I am. But, you know, I'm nuts. So you guys have to allow for that.

thea