Hi Twisti,

I don't know how much support I can be. I have chronic depression and many phys. problems which really exacerbate when I'm majorly depressed. I know how difficult it is to care for a family on "good days"and how it is nearly impossible to manage your family on "bad" days.
When my kids were young I apologized a lot to them for being so crabby; I guess after a while the apologies didn't mean much, I don't know.
I think it's wonderful you have an understanding husband, but your right, he can only understand to a certain degree. I think that's the hardest part, because most people really DON'T understand. There were days when I thought I was the worse mother in whole world.....I hope you don't feel that way.
Hopefully, when you receive the "correct" dx and, the right combo of meds/ therapy you won't have many bad days.
Take care,
-bcuz