Just know that you are not alone in how you are feeling. It is a really scarey, lonely feeling to lose hope..... to feel a void that nothing can fill, to feel nothingness. Is there really any wonder you hate what's happening right now? You are FEELING. You probably haven't done that in a long while. Your mom gave you some wise advise. It's good she's there for you. Listen to her. Call your T, if you need to talk to her tonight- do it. She will not mind. Otherwise, please call her in the morning and talk to her then or set up another appointment to see her. You needing someone, something, is good........ even though it doesn't feel that way. Believe it or not (I can't believe I'm gonna say this) it means there IS hope.

Do you think you'll be ok tonight?