So, last night I was triggered and got very upset.
I ended up distracting myself TV, then took a Klonopin and went to bed. Even ended up in tears when my boyfriend came to hold me.

Got up this morning and managed to be somewhat productive. But I feel very rocky at the moment.
I am fragile and often feel tearful. Have been trying to distract myself with TV and internet for the last 3 hours (It's 1PM here now - lunch time) and my bf has been out working for the last 4 hours - which was only meant to be 2 hours.
It's a public holiday and awesome weather, and I was really hoping to do something special with him.

After 3 hours at home alone, I am feeling really down. And anxious. Feel like a drink, and WILL have one, even if it is considered wrong.
I really need to dull my senses right now and not allow myself time to think or be introspective.

I just wish I had company right now. I don't like feeling so vulnerable. Tomorrow is work - that's not going to help my mood much either...b

Is this just a normal human situation, or is it my privileged life of Bipolar? I just wish I could be rock hard, and let things roll off my back - but instead, I am hyper-sensitive

gggggrrrrrr.....

Thanks guys - just needed to vent