I need to hear from some of you who have been in therapy for a while, your story told & you're in a phase where you identify & evaluate protective measures formed at an earlier age, and try to gauge whether they are still effective - and if not, working on changing them

I think this is where T and I are headed now, and when I think of going to see her I am just blank -

I know it's resistance, it absolutely is. Those pieces of psychological armor tht I put in place so long ago HAVE worked, in their way, even though sometimes the price is high; the alternative - adjusting or eliminating some of them - is scary beyond words.

I don't want to go back to see T any more, and if I do go, I certainly don't want to tell her all this. Could some of you please share your experiences and help me ?