I use lots of different words to talk about those within depending on who is out. The words I choose IMO are not right or wrong they just are. I don't think anyone should define the words for another persons experience... especially with something like DID. It is a process of our creative mind and is not always rational, linear or make sense.

My gate keeper is rather amorphous right now. They have long flowing robes but I can't tell if they are dark scary robes like the grim reaper or if they are bright colorful clothes like a fairy. I think it is female but I am not sure. It is just a gray shadow.

It is showing me that it believes it is time to let T in. T doesn't work with parts though so it gets complicated. Some parts are offended and angry others feel rejected and sad. Most parts don't care. Ts favorite part (yup, wont work with parts but does have a favorite) is happy but protective... she isn't too keen on sharing "her T".

Oddly I am not anxious as I would usually be. Although a little concerned as to what this newness may bring. This gate has never been opened before... Not to anyone (I am not even sure I have been allowed past this gate consciously before). Every time I have brought someone this close the gates are shut tight and the gate keeper just stands in our way Or things get all blurry and I can't find my way in.

Someone else wants out, time to switch... gunna be one of those days... lots of switching, like a little kid playing with the lights.