I feel very shamefull about who I am, and have have always when it came to my family, Im the youngest of six children, and I avoid everyone of them the best I can. I get asked.... why are you in therapy? Do you talk about us? Whats wrong with you? You crazy? To tell ya the truth, part of me wants to scream out, "YES, I am crazy, so leave me alone," but of course that voice doesnt speak, instead I shutter away, make some quick comment, say I have to go, dont call them back, avoid them like the plaque.

We had a full family reunion last summer at a sisters home in Maine, and I was the only one who didnt show up, I was so afraid of going, and of seeing and facing them, I landed myself in the hospital. Whats wrong with me, why am I so ashamed??