(((happycheeks))) - I can't remember if you're getting help for your moods from a doctor or therapist?? I've noticed you feel very bad sometimes and then it passes fast and you feel better. This means you need to be patient and wait for it to pass. I do think as VenusHalley said, you need to get to the root of where and what's causing these feelings. You can't keep riding on this roller coaster of emotion.

Now about the bad things you said - would you ever say these things to a friend or loved one???? I bet you wouldn't, so you need to give yourself the same kindness and respect you would give others. Think of these thoughts as a nasty little troll that sits on your shoulder - his job is to pester, nagg and put you down. Imagine you take your finger and fling him off your shoulder or better yet, how can you get rid of him for good. You're really not these bad thoughts at all.