Boy can I relate to this WePow. Your statement about how this time feels different than in the past is something that resonated as well. For me I feel that way but am too ambivilant to just quit. I have talked endlessly about this to my t and advice from him and other people on pc (poss you?) was to just keep going. Just keep showing up until you know one way or another. You don't have to make a decisison right now with such a sudden shift in feelings, you just have to tolerate them.

And Lord knows you may have to tolerate for a loooong time. It has been at least a year for me now. I keep telling t that I am going to have a white picket permanently implanted in my arse from sitting on it for so long.

Just tolerate the ambivilance. Just tolerate the apathy. Tolerate it until you have a clear understanding of what it is. Tolerate until you are able to make a "wise mind" decision. I know you can WePow.