You're welcome, opaque. Do you know what caused the anger way back when? Are you clear on what exactly triggers your anger now? Do you have a T to talk to? You say: "I'm wasting my time thinking about trying to feel better." Is that really a waste of time? A lot of people here would think that it's not at all a waste of time. How can anyone feel better unless they think about what's making them feel badly? I know that when one is doing it one's self it frequently feels like running around in circles. That's why T's are handy, at least for me. They help one sort out all the thoughts and emotions that frequently get all tangled up. Keep on posting and we'll see what we can do here. You're among friends here on PC. Take care.