Oh I can understand the not wanting to go.

I burst into tears every time and usually have to take my clonazepam before I go or else I will literally fight and scream and hit to avoid it.

One time I went into the ER with a UTI that was still hurting, and they made me have a pap smear ( i say they made me, well, I agreed but only because I was afraid and they sort of bullyed me into the room) and it was this horrible old man doctor (no offence to old man doctors) and i cried and cried and cried the whole way through.. It was horrible. Now I only go if I absolutely have to, and ill only see the female doctors at the planned parenthood clinic, Cause I know they will probably never see me again.

Im weird like that though.

Oh and about the friction: Any rubbers with texture or studs or ribs make me hurt like heck. I had to stop using all but the regular ones. Also spermicide hurts the crap out of my parts too.