Thank you all so very much! The support feels great. I go for a second opinion psychiatry consult tomorrow, which sounds like it will be very thorough. I'm glad for this because my outpatient psychiatrist "dumped me" today. He said "You didn't tell me how much you were drinking....and you didn't reach out to me before you tried to kill yourself. I'm glad that I will be referred to someone else...what a way to treat a patient on his first follow-up appointment after getting out of the hospital. Ahhh...it feels nice to vent....