((((fox)))) Great to hear from you.

As part of my denial of my dx, I regularly have asked my T could I please have schizophrenia instead of DID (...I mean absolute no disrespect to anyone with schizophrenia and I by no means believe it to be an easy condition to live with or anything like that). My denial stems from my refusal to accept my past which has created my condition rather than a desire for another mental illness, if that makes sense. Anyway, my T's main point against schizophrenia was the lack of delusion. I hallucinate and my mind came play some pretty mean tricks that can confuse me and make me scared but at a deeper level, I KNOW that is what it is...my mind playing tricks, and it is my fears and anxiety that keep me caught in the trick. I don't BELIEVE in the trick, or my belief is temporary. When I am feeling stronger, I am able to ground, be logical and lessen the psychological impact of what I am experiencing. If I had schizophrenia, I would have utter and unshakable belief in the trick and not even time would lessen or change my view or opinion of whatever it may be. This is where it is hard for a schizophrenic to recognise their own condition too, as their belief in the delusion is to the point of it not being a delusion to them, but a truth. Just thought I'd let you know how it has been for me, maybe it may help you. But of course, ...this is just my experience and by no means is a diagnosis etc etc etc....

My understanding is that this is over and beyond hearing voices, which is the commonality between the two. Perhaps Amandalouise could offer a better explanation or differentiation, she tends to have a knack at the 'doctorspeak' and having it make much better sense!

I also agree with the suggestion of seeking a trauma based T if possible, I guess that would be closer to addressing PTSD issues at least. Good luck if you decide to try the 160km away T.

Sorry to hear you have had a rough winter. I hope things are settling down for you somewhat, and the spring sun is warming your bones and adding some sun to your heart.

kp