Thanks Lavie. It has been a rough night but tomorrow is another day. I don't think I have actually been meditating per say. Maybe I don't really understand it. I tend to just make it up as I go. Guided meditation, like guided yoga seems to always feel like a mental exercise then anything else. I think I have been mixing up the focused breathing and moments of mindlessness with real meditation. Its not so important really or maybe I just think that way because I haven't really discovered you yet. Kind of funny if you think about it.

I think I am being non-sensical right now but at least I am feeling more settled and able to sit quietly with my breath so i will do that somemore and head off the bed.

Wishing you well and showers of joyful blessings to us all. peace.