Peaches, that is so so sad. I have no idea what I'd do in similar circumstances. My T will be gone for a week next week and it will be so hard for me that I'm going to leave town also just so that I will have a lot of distraction by traveling and mixing with people.

But you are missing a lot more sessions PLUS you're feeling a distance growing between you and T. How painful! I think I would want to die if that happened with me and T. And I know exactly how you feel about not wanting to beg for attention.

I have no suggestions because I can't imagine trying to cope with such a situation. I'm sure there are others here on PC who will be able to share similar stories and give you some good advice.

My thoughts are with you.