Oh man, is that a self-sabotaging thought "I shouldn't need a T to lean on." ? Well, my question is 'What's wrong with us needing to lean on a T?' We go through life always thinking we need to be self sufficient, independent, self-reliant, etc. And those thoughts get us into trouble.

But in RL, we depend on others for so much. We live in society, we live in community and we all need each other.

What a T does is provide some of the needs that may not be easily fulfilled in RL. It's easy to fulfill our need for food - go to the store. It's easy to fulfill our need for entertainment - go to movies, shows, etc. It's easy to fulfill our need for rest - go to bed. And many many other needs can be fulfilled in RL.

But why do we devalue the need to be heard, to be listened to with compassion? Why do we believe that that shouldn't be a need? Why do we believe that we should be independently strong? Why can't we believe it's o.k. to lean on someone?

We human beings are meant for connection. We are not islands. We need each other for support. Sometimes we offer support. Sometimes we receive support.

Sugahorse- I think you should return to your weekly sessions. Sure, you're better - that's the goal in therapy. But, if you're like me and many others, 'better' is just a stage in the whole journey. Don't deny yourself the help to continue to grow.