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Old Mar 22, 2011, 01:12 PM
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Mine had to reschedule 2 sessions due to illness recently. Once back in January and the other time was last week. Now I won't be talking to her again until April 7, because she won't be in the office the week before. (I always go every 2 weeks, unlike most people...every week is too much for me.) So I have to hang on for three weeks this time. Is there a close friend or family member you can talk to about things? Hang in there.

With or without you,

I'm sorry that you're having to deal with this issue too. I hope the time goes by fast for you!

I keep trying to tell myself that seeing my t less, and having less support, is part of the growing process, and that I'm going to get through it, and it's not always going to feel so bad. But right now, it hurts and feels bad! It's times like these i wish i hadn't ever let myself attach to her like this. i knew pulling away was going to hurt like h*$#.

My t seems to think that if i deal with the original trauma of neglect from my parents, that my separation and loss issues with her will fade. I sure hope so. But at the same time, i can't see how that's going to make me suddenly jump up and say, "Hey! I'm all better now! Now that i've solved the issue with my mom, I realize that i'm not attached to you after all, that we never had a real relationship, and that you were just pretending to be a stand-in for my mom until I figured it all out. Guess I don't need you anymore, so bye!
Thanks for this!
Chronic, with or without you