I keep losing track of time now that I'm trying my best to stay sober...is this normal? Plus the insomnia is getting worse and the aches are killing me. My mind keeps racing about getting a buzz, from anything, and I mean literally anything. It's so stupid and I hate it.

I'm so tired. I hurt. And my mind won't shut up. So to anyone that loves the buzz..............................don't over-do it. I haven't been sober this long in over 5 years. It's really messing with me how bad it's hurting. I didn't think I was this terribly addicted, I thought I had some control when really the drugs were controlling me. I was begging for more last night, almost about to cry. I feel terrible that he has to see me like this...and realize that he's dating a total screw up.