I don't know if my fears are rational or not.

I began going to my local Workforce Center to get assistance in getting a job that I can do. I've gone through a company assessing my current skills, through 3 different work trials. Two went pretty well, one was horrible. My guy at Workforce Center, named Jeff, seems quick and abrupt with me. And I'm not good with people like that.

I struggle to focus & comprehend everything said, when he's talking about different aspects of his next appointment with me. Thankfully, a guy that used to work with me (at my beginning of disability) was present at today's meeting, and offerred to come with to my next appointment. To help me understand.

I just fear that Jeff wants to get me out to work as much as possible, and get off SSI. I am afraid to do that! Afraid that I can't handle it. I've agreed to part-time work, and adamently said that I know I can't handle full-time. Not simply because I have young children that I'm responsible for. But, mainly because my brain has limits. Plain and simple! When I go past those limits, I fall apart emotionally and then physically. It is NOT fun to go through.

I'm terrified that the aim to get me off SSI will make me fall apart. Just a couple of weeks ago, I got all mixed up with my medicine intake. Just one week, and I became a basket case!

Okay...I am panicking. Sorry. I am just so scared that I'll be off SSI, and then kicked out of my apartment, I won't be able to handle it, and it will be too late ~ I'll be out of "the system". They making budget cuts galore, to balance the state budget.

Can anyone offer knowledge (and/or reassurance) of the system? Will I be okay going to work part-time? Is it just a matter of time before SSI is taken away and I lose medical assistance??