(((((((((((peaches)))))))))))

My T takes a LOT - I mean A LOT - of breaks (although he hasn't recently...but I know they're coming this spring/summer). It really IS hard.

Our biggest rupture occurred around his breaks. I just kept pulling away and pulling away. It was hard to hold onto the connection, and t would SAY the connection was the same, but it didn't FEEL the same.

I'm aware of it now, and I really try not to pull away anymore. I do try to trust that everything is the same, because I know it IS. And I guess I do try to use a lot of different coping skills - reaching out to other people, reaching out on PC, staying busy, getting outside, writing long e-mails to T that I don't send, leaving a message for T if I need to just to tell him what's going on.

I SO understand needing the words of reassurance from T, though. Do you think that if you state clearly what you need, she will give it to you? Sometimes I have to practically give my T a script, but it's okay. I know he will only say things that are honest, and he will give me whatever I need, as long as I am clear about it.

I wonder if you can schedule some extra sessions the weeks before and after break? T and I usually try to do an extra session either before or after (or both) and it really helps.

I'm sorry it's so hard.