(((((constantdreamer)))))))

Hello and I to am sorry you are feeling empty... Other then my deep respect for you making it through moment by moment or day by day only to find pain in order to heal doesn't seem fair.
Just know that my thoughts and hopes are with you in your journey and that you aren't bad. The ones that are bad are those that hurt you! Somehow if we can just put all these horrible feelings back on those that hurt us. Something I learned back in the beginning of my healing from my abusive past is that IF those that have hurt you are bothering you and I mean the things that may be in your head and just can't shake the way I was treated. I know with me I couldn't get the shame and the guilt that took my childhood away. I slowly had to write it out however then I learned from my therapist that anything that is pulling me down in a negative way to do the opposite of what I feel I need to do to make pain go away. So I did the opposite with every negative feeling and I still do. I don't know if this is the way you feel or not, I do know it has taken me a bunch of years to put the shame back on my abusers.... My hopes and dreams of good things are not far from you, I hope you can feel it......................... Your friend, Crew