I understand...ive struggled for all my life it with poor self image, convinced im fat, ugly & unworthy. Just recently got out of relationship...he told me about 2 yrs ago that I was too big for his liking, convinced me that he was telling me cuz he loved me & wanted to help me turn my physical health around. I know I cant put numbers pertaining to size & ht...but I was a Rene Zeilweger type, only not pretty...as I have thought of myself. Now two years later...the coin has flipped to the other side...& still thought of food consume me constantly. Now he & I are separated & we share custody of our children, however they are with him now as I am struggling w my health which has turned into mental health issues primarily! The grass is not greener on the other side, in this situation. I dont have magic advice for you...but I do know the path you are walking all to well...& will support, read & respond to your post....keep your chin up is what my nanny would command me to do...& persevere life is short s