My friend tried everything for her bad gallbladder for 30 years. Finally when she got Medicaid she got it out. Now she's a new person. Too bad she's making up for lost time foodwise. She's gained a little weight now that she can eat what she wants.
I think you have some willpower though. I can see through her it is well worth the surgery. It was done outpatient and she was totally herself again in a week or maybe less than that. And she was 65. So I know you can handle it.