Im so sorry u feel this way...i can relate however, I am not overweight...im underweight...alot underweight...im very self concious about it, embarrassed- I used to be, I dnt care anymore...im a hermit, literally. I started.having panic attack a year ago...afraid to go out cuz I could 'feel' the starring glances, hear the whispers...ive battle depression most of my life. the 1 person whom I trusted to be a friend told me 2yrs ago than I was 'a bit' heavier than he liked to see for me. Said he loved me & wanted to help me loose weight, be healthier...long story short...i lost that friend...the eatting disorder that I was 'hiding' took over my life...my mind...& ultimatley my body. The struggle is hard ...every second is cluttered with thoughts of poor self image, very little self esteem. I decided tho to to plant my on one belief or goal...decided to do something ive never before...medit at e...'tonglen' meditation...u have to find that 1 thing & plant ur feet, go forward with that...some how...the rest of life falls into place, I plan my day around the 'thing for myself...& go from ther