Hi
Good Luck with everything
I've been in the hospital twice by force.

I think it's good that you are conciously considering it, meaning that you are making some understanding and ideas of your limits and boundaries.

Prehaps if you go to the hospital it will be for only 2 or 3 days since it might just be a monitoring of your behavior and medication adjustment, pretty minor. I feel your fear and worry- its not easy to let yourself go into a place like this.

And like some else wrote, you might be able to do it at an outpatient program where you just go to intense therapy and see you shrink for med adjustment, no overnights.

Remember, you're health is important. Whatever it takes...I tell myself.
By the end, you'll feel better, even just trying is remarkable and good for you.

Hugs and support,

Ele