My main indicator of mania/hypomania is the impulsive crap. I don't get all high and flighty and happy and energetic - I do stupid stuff and ruin my life. This is why I never really thought I was Bipolar, because I didn't realize that these type of things were mania.

Well, I've been diagnosed with BOTH Bipolar AND Borderline. And risky, impulsive behaviors fit the criteria for both. Spending, binging, sexual indiscretions (in my past, not recently), that sort of thing.

So any time I tell my pnurse that I've been spending a lot of money lately and my husband is mad at me, she thinks I'm manic so she ups the dose of something. And it just makes me a zombie.

But what if it's got nothing to do with Bipolar? Meds don't treat Borderline.

I am actually changing providers for my medications, so I'd like to get a good handle on how to describe how I'm feeling so the next one doesn't overmedicate me as well.