Thanks for all of your kind words. My sister has arranged a doctors appointment for tomorrow afternoon. I've written a letter and am taking some notes this time so that i don't clam up again! We'll see how that goes. I think i'm more calm about it now, less confused, i think i've finally accepted that whatever is happening to me i need some help with it. I'm more relaxed about it all now - i just need advice.
My parents have just had a nag at us all for bad attitudes and not pulling our weights. I don't know how many times i've had days like these, not being able to get through my mood and letting my parents and my family down as well. I can cope with quite well now though, i just have to listen to them, then kinda stop it getting through if you know what i mean. I'm not wanting to be mean to my parents but if i let it get to me everytime they complained about me not talking, or being aggressive or moody i'd doubt i'd ever get out of bed at all!!
My sister's not coping as well though, she has so much to think about and deal with. My parents were talking about us not supporting each other - if only they knew!! I almost wish i wasn't an extra stress to her, but then at the same time i'm glad as well because she has been so supportive to me.
Anyway, just wanted to keep you updated and thank you for everything. I'm not feeling as low anymore thankfully, getting there slowly. bye Abby.