Sorry to hear you are having trouble dealing with your pent-up emotions now. Another thing which sometimes works for some of us is writing in a journal. Has much the same effect sometimes as talking with someone who understands. You are able to vent what's bothering you, in black and white, on paper. There is a precise record of how you are feeling now. That can be powerfully healing in itself, just to say it to yourself. Also is something that can be shared with a therapist.