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I used to work for Hospice as a grief counselor. Average grief period is approximately 3 years - the sharp pain in your gut lessens as time goes on and the grieving takes a different form. My point being that this is the first year since your Mother's death. ANYONE in this situation, especially on the first year anniversary, would be grieving. And that's people that have families, etc. and not dealing with any illness!
Therefore, you are VERY courageous!
I'm praying for a good experience in this hospital with no fear.
Look forward to your return!