My god.... U can't give up without trying.... U have to be strong and try to quit like u did last time.. Just be brave.... and fight for urself..... seeking relief in SI is just a temporary relief and trust i have been there.... so i know.... When ever u r sad why don't u read a book or may be listen to music.... or come here in the chat and talk about wat's wrong.... U can even send me personal msg's if u want.... may god bless u.... Truly hoping u get over SI.. tc.... ((....Hugs if u need....))