Hi greenleaves, is this your first shakedown cruise with the oh my god I'm gonna die thing? I agree with everybody that it is likely not the big C, but, whether it is or not, this is a good time to do some soul searching about what is important to you, what your personal priorities and beliefs really are.......
Plus, being diagnosed with cancer is not a death sentence. Go ahead and take a deep breath on that one, ok? Welcome to mortality, it's part of growing up! On the other hand, waiting for results sucks so big time it's not funny. Hang in there, do nice things for yourself. It's a good habit to get into regardless.