Hey, just wanted you to know that I think I know how you are feeling. I have only one person IRL who I can confide to. Unfortunately, at the moment she is deeply in a depressive episode herself too, and for her own protection has told me that she just cannot deal with my issues for the time being. I do understand so very well but it leaves me out cold. I have cut ties to anyone else that I ever thought understood anything. It's extremely painful to hear her tell me that I should seek someone else for support when I have absolutely no strength - and have not been able to do that even when well.