I can really relate to your story - well other than the fact that I would say it's 75% terrible side effects vs 25% in my case for antidepressants. Would you care to share what kind of treatments you have tried, traditional and alternative? Maybe someone here has still something different that has given some relief.

I feel tired even listing what I have tried but in my case for my 'resistant' issues the best drugs have been stimulants. I know that does not work well for people whose depression is very agitated but mine is most of the time the dead-variety. I've seem to get most help from the weirdest meds (like old MAOI:s), and have been to neuropsychiatrists who have been knowledgeable about eg folic acid that most regular docs would not even have heard of.