Withorwithout you,

I've tried to cut down or stop emailing her because i know that when i don't get the kind of response from her that i need, it sometimes feels even worse than the separation pain between sessions feels. But i haven't been able to stop emailing. I'm thinking now that i'm going to have to force myself because i think it's gotten to the point where my t just doesn't take my emails seriously anymore. . .i'm the little boy who cried Wolf! I think my emails have lost their value. it's true that i've overdone emails. i don't blame my t if she's sick of hearing from me. i'm sick of reading my own words. It's all so repetitious and it feels like it's starting not to mean anything but mumbo jumbo, blah blah blah.