So I'm on a break from T right now, probably going back sometime in July or August. One of the goals that we made together for my time away was not to SI...and I haven't. A lot of what keeps me motivated is the thought of being able to go into her office and announce that I haven't cut since the last time I saw her. The problem is, I'm worried that she won't believe me. Even if I tell her that I've gone a week without cutting, she always says, "but would you tell me if you had?" which makes me feel like she thinks I'm lying. I can and probably will talk to her about it, but just because she stops asking me doesn't mean that she's stopped thinking it. Especially because I will be spending 6-7 months out of therapy, which is longer than I've ever gone without SI before, if I make it that far. I wouldn't blame her for being skeptical...